And if my feelings are truthful, I remember feeling empowered by the fact that I felt more in control of myself. My MM issues were live, but for once, My risk was once more capped in some way, as I would rarely get the chance to imagine a 4 th scenario... (since straddle -2% max risk)
The most crucial issue now was how I was going to make myself finally respect MM implications once and for all.... perhaps I was a few months away of developing that belief... But a lack of consistency in that department was a promise of a bumpy ride ahead... i was either going to make 2% off scenario A , 1% off scenario B or 0% off scenario C. limiting my loss to a maximum of 3%.
Developing this type of plan was way more important then guessing if the next trade is right or wrong.... it made things more mechanic.
Even if my focus was narrowed down to the idea that i must win today... the fact that i took thees steps to reach the goal in a better fashion was a good thing after all.